Sharing is Daring

Something bizarre and usual took place today. While riding home on the bus, Cali got teary and cried because she was missing Camden. Her dear friend who sits with on the bus was talking about her baby brother and I guess this sparked some unresolved emotions that were brought back to the surface for Cali. Through this entire journey Chad and I have walked, so has Cali. She walk alongside us as we grieved, started Camden's Run, went through IVF and now the adoption process. She has been amazingly strong through it all but as she has gotten older she has been able to articulate her feelings more to us. Sometimes it's her simple statements that make the biggest impact in our day. "Can we look through Camden's picture book?" "Remember when I used to help you give Camden's baths?" "I want Camden back." "I want a baby now." "When I grow up who will be my brother and sister?" "It's not fair." Really we do...

Life is but a dream Some days it feels like a bad dream, Other days it feels just as it seems, We keep doing what we know best, Keeping our head above water with only a life vest. Some days the tide is calm and still, relaxing, Other days the tide is rough and harsh, taxing. We fear the unknown which lurks below us, But we still jump in, curious of what waits for us. Some days the water is warm and inviting, summery, Other days the water is cold and displeasing, blustery. How can something so beautiful promise both pleasure and gloom? Why can’t the ocean be like the picture on the wall, the ocean we presume? We get so jealous of that ocean, the one on the wall, Because we know it’s but a dream to us all. Life isn’t full of just sunsets and ocean tunes, It ebbs and flows with the sun and the moon. It rises and it falls because the tide is never the same, But don’t let this diminish your fire and flame. It’s worth the risk to find out what lurks below, You never know...