Should we paint Camden's room blue or green?
Should I work or stay home?
Should we cremate or bury Camden?
Do you think Cali needs play therapy?
What should we do with Camden's stuff?
Should we have more kids?
What if we can't get pregnant?
Why isn't IVF working?
Should we look into adoption?
Do we want to keep asking people for more money?
How will this effect Cali?
That is a small glimpse into our lives the past couple of years. Many of you reading this know our story so I don't feel like I need to go into great detail. Our journey to start a family has gone very differently than expected. It started out like many of you. We had a beautiful Daughter Cali. She stole our hearts. Shortly after, we got pregnant and had our second child, Camden. He equally stole our hearts but in a very different way. At 6 months old Camden died of SIDS. This is when our story starts to look different. After his death we went through a range of emotions. But both Chad and I came out feeling the same way. We felt our family was not complete.
Eager to have more kids we starting trying again but this time something wasn't right. We tried for nearly two years to get pregnant and were unsuccessful. We tired naturally and through IVF(In Vitro Fertilization). After four failed IVF cycles we decided to stop. It was taking a toll on my body, mind and spirit. I couldn't handle it anymore. Anyone who has gone through this can agree, it's not for the weak at heart. We stopped in April of 2016 and decided to look towards a future of a family of three. But it still didn't feel right. We couldn't understand why God wouldn't want us to have more children. We have so much love to share. An extra bedroom just waiting for a child and a loving family waiting to embrace them.
Through prayer and encouragement we felt God's call to adoption. We started the adoption process at Bethany Christian Services through their Domestic Adoption Program. We are both excited and scared. We knew this was going to cost a lot of money but we weren't aware it would be THAT much money. When it's all said and done it will cost $30,000. When we heard this number we started to doubt again. But God kept pushing us through. We're keeping the faith, through fundraising and support we will be able to raise enough money to bring a baby home. With all that being said, we started a Go Fund Me Page for our adoption.You can follow this link to our page.
https://www.gofundme.com/Hillardadoption
This page is set up for anyone who wants to donate to our adoption fund. We also plan to have several fundraising events through out the next year to help. Currently we are still in need of $20,000. It's a big number but we know our friends and family have even bigger hearts!
To clarify the money donated will go directly to our adoption fund. This money is used to pay Bethany Christian for their services, legal fees and processing important documents.
We thank you for being a part of this journey with us and we look forward to sharing good news with you in the future!
Love,
Chad, Julie and Cali Hillard
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