Sharing is Daring

Dear Camden, It's hard to believe it's your third birthday. Time keeps moving on. Our lives are so different now then it was only a few short years ago. It feels like just yesterday I was calling Daddy during the middle of the night on August 22nd, 2013, trying to pass time because I couldn't sleep. Daddy was driving his truck and I was lying in bed trying to ignore the fact that you were trying to kick your way out of me. I never went in to labor with your sister so I wasn't sure I was really ready to go the hospital. I didn't want to be the Mom who goes in to only get sent back home again. So I waited and waited some more. But your Daddy had this sneaking suspicion I was going to have you that day and he advised me to call Mammaw and Nana to come help me. So I did just that. Mamma came before the sun and drove me to the hospital. Nana stayed at home with Cali so she could keep sleeping. While driving in the car my mom could see I was having very close contractio...

Chad and I have had many questions in the past three years. They range from... Should we paint Camden's room blue or green? Should I work or stay home? Should we cremate or bury Camden? Do you think Cali needs play therapy? What should we do with Camden's stuff? Should we have more kids? What if we can't get pregnant? Why isn't IVF working? Should we look into adoption? Do we want to keep asking people for more money? How will this effect Cali? That is a small glimpse into our lives the past couple of years. Many of you reading this know our story so I don't feel like I need to go into great detail. Our journey to start a family has gone very differently than expected. It started out like many of you. We had a beautiful Daughter Cali. She stole our hearts. Shortly after, we got pregnant and had our second child, Camden. He equally stole our hearts but in a very different way. At 6 months old Camden died of SIDS. This is when our story starts to look d...